Wait

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;

Quietly, patiently, lovingly God replied.

I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate,

And the Master who gently said

"Child, you must wait."

"Wait you say, wait!" my indignant reply.

"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!

Is your hand shortened? Or have you no heart?

By faith, I have asked, and am claiming your Word

My future and all to which i can relate

Hangs in the balance, and YOU tell me to WAIT?

I'm needing a "yes" a go-ahead sign,

or even a "no" to which i can resign."

"And Lord, You promised that if we believe

We need but to ask, and we shall receive.

Lord, I've been asking and this is my cry;

I'm wearing of asking! I need a reply!"

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate.

As my Master replied once again, "You must wait."

So, I slumped in my chair, defeated...

And I then grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting...for what?"

He seemed, then to kneel and His eyes wept with mine,

And he tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.

I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.

I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.

All you seek I could give and pleased you would be.

You would have what you want - but you wouldn't know Me.

You'd not know the depth of My love for each person

You'd not know the joy of resting in Me

When darkness and silence were all you could see.

You'd never experience that fullness of love

As the peace of My Spirit descends like a dove;

you'd know that I live and I save ....(for a start),

But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.

The glow of my comfort late into the night.

The faith that i give when you walk without sight.

The depth that's beyond getting just what you asked,

Of an infinite God, who makes what you have LAST.

You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,

What it means that "My grace is sufficient for Thee."

Yes, your dreams for your loved one overnight would come true,

But, Oh the loss! If I lost what I'm doing with you!

So be silent, my child, and in time you will see

That the greatest of gifts is to get to know Me

And though oft' may My answers seem terribly late

My most precious answer of all is still, "wait."

-author unknown

A Little Princess

Many many times in my life have i been told that i am God's princess. At first i believed it as a young girl, then as i grew older i thought what a silly tale for someone to tell little girls. Yes i knew i was a child of God, but a princess, NO WAY! It didn't make sense to me anymore, i had a great relationship with God, but it just never seemed biblical to say or believe that i was actually God's princess. Still there was a longing in my heart, just a little piece hidden somewhere hoping it was all true. 

Well tonight as i was reading Captivating by John and Stasi Eldredge they started to talk about being a princess. God's princess. I thought in my head blah blah blah, another author stuck in one of those "your God's princess" modes just to make us feel better...i think not. Then John wrote this a little part from the book A Little Princess "Whatever comes, cannot alter one thing. If i am a princess in rags and tatters, i can be a princess inside. it would be easy to be a princess if i were dressed in a cloth of gold, but it is a great deal more of a triumph to be one all the time when no one knows it." And for some reason unknown to me, i teared up. I thought why do i long to be that kind of a princess? Why do i long to be called a princess? not one of those that have everything in the world, but a princess by the definition as being God's, the king of kings and the lord of lords daughter. 

And if He is a king and I am his daughter, then by all means i AM HIS princess. And that is what my heart had longed for all these years. To know that it was okay, it wasn't too girly or silly to think that. I think every girl out there longs somewhere deep inside to be called a princess, no matter who you are or what you have gone through, there is this longing. It's God saying "My daughter, my princess, you are beautiful and i love you." 

Men have a different understanding then we do when it comes to this. They have different needs, of course they don't want to be called princesses, so i think most men discourage the "typical" princess/beautiful/daughter thing that we as women talk so much about. they discourage this because i think just maybe they weren't built the way we were and they don't have the same longing inside of them, but i could be wrong because i am not a man. I do not blame men for maybe just some of them simply do now know any better. 

But what i do know is that I am a princess, not with any crown, or cape of gold, or nice castle, or even a prince, but i am God's princess, his daughter and he loves me and that is more than enough for me!